Roland and I went to Fort Collins to see Gabe on his 23rd birthday.
I was caught off guard and slightly stunned when he opened his door,
he looked so much like a photo of my dad in the 70's.
The look of baby love in 1990. My eyes give it away - I'm in love with this boy.
Gabriel David
What a lovey baby he was. Those big brown eyes and they way he nuzzled
his soft head into my neck.
I'm pretty sure I have told you this before, but Gabe likes to tell a story
about how when he was about 15 and had been pushing my buttons and had me quite worked up. He is super smart and was really good at pushing my buttons.
I was so irritated that I said, "If I had a gun -"
and my original feeling was that I would shoot him. I was that upset.
But as the words started to come out of my mouth I knew I loved him more than
life and I couldn't imagine the thought of shooting but I could imagine something else,
so I said, in my fed-up-mom voice:
"If I had a gun I would...bonk you on the head with it!"
Oh, he laughed and laughed.
Gabe always says he wants to make a t-shirt with that phrase on it. Occasionally when he feels the need
to show me he loves me by teasing me a bit he will say
"if I had a gun..."
with a smirk on his face. Does that make us sound like a terrible family?
No.
We are the family that does and says goofy things and then we laugh at ourselves later.
People say that children's brains finish off around the age 22-25 and they start acting like adults.
I see this in Gabe.
He is kind. He thinks of others.
He reserves his judgement and instead, he helps.
He wants to make his family, home, community, and world a better, cleaner, safer place.
He likes to laugh with us. He appreciates love and how it makes life easier and more enjoyable.
He has experienced things that we didn't want him to experience, but he is okay
and they have made him stronger and more compassionate.
He is a joy. We always love our children, but its so nice to like your children.
I like you Gabe.
Happy Birthday.